Emotional and Needy

Dear God... please just let my emotional needy state of mind tonight be that sign I have been looking for!  I'm sitting here texting my wife, whom I'm missing like crazy tonight.  She just left a little more than an hour ago to go to some sleep clinic to be tested for sleep apnea.  Meanwhile, I'm online looking at all kinds of fertility websites and the cryobank bulletin board looking for information, exactly what information I'm not sure.  I guess I just want to reassure myself that the fact that I'm not noticing any symptoms of pregnacy is normal and not a sign of another friggin' failed cycle.  Before Steph left, I snuck a little stuffed pug (beanie baby) into her overnight bag; I didn't want her to be lonely.  She found it.  I told her it was "peanut" (that was our puggy Harley's nickname who died last September) and she was there to watch over her.  Her next text was... "Awwwww I love u."  BAM, instant tears in my eyes.  I'm sure feeling emotional and needy tonight.  I guess I'll go curl up with our two furbabies, Roxy and Sassy in our King-size bed and watch a bunch of crappy TV 'til I fall asleep.  This is a treat for me and the girls, since Steph doesn't like the dogs in the bed LOL....and the crappy TV is my kinda television.  Thank goodness it's only one night.